Big big disappointment.

tell me who to believe now?
tell me who to trust.
blood is thicker than water.
fuck, i have no family anyway.
look at my family.
fucked up.

people see things. they judge things. they manipulate the truth. they tell lies. they complicate up things. they say things according to their own pov. thats why, i said, its better to talk to a stranger. i've been on the phone with stranger these few days. it made me realize that not everyone is good. and you've got to know who to believe and who not to. and you gotta know if the person is really worth loving. if he's really worth hurting for. is he worth it? has he been lying to me all the while? i think he's worth it. and i don't think he's been lying. i believe him. you know, to truly love a person, is to love the person, regardless of their flaws. to love everything about the person. like, really really everything. and not just love the person when he/she is treating you well and stuff. you know.

i think through all if these, i learnt a lot.

and honestly, i'm still disappointed that you didn't see things through my pov. like, try putting yourself into my shoes. like, after all these, you know how'd i feel right. and those things i said, were out of frustrations. and not because of anything else or what. honestly. i removed it the next day. cause i realized my emotions weren't stable then. but when you saw it. you alr immediately judged me. you immediately assumed my reason for posting that for something else. like. really. can you just ask me. i dare you. i really dare you to pull yourself together, and fucking come here and talk to me. and ask me. don't just stare at these words and not do anything. i didn't mean any harm. honestly. i'm not lying. don't you think life would be easier if you don't judge or assume. instead, find out the real truth to it all. don't be angry at someone over something that you assumed. don't you think its a waste of everything. a waste of your energy to be angry. a waste of your time to think. don't use the "anger" as an excuse to stay away.

i dare you.

braces would hurt. ):

MIDYEAR L1R5, 42.
L1B4, 33.


FML.