i can't be alone. i'll keep thinking and thinking.
and crying and dying, ): i'm damn torn.
you know, honestly, i don't know who to talk to and how to. but twin, you're damn matured luh, seriously, your thinking is different from anyone else. and, you know him just as well as i do. you know that he isn't this type of person. and you were disappointed, yeah. cause he was the one you thought you could count on. yeah. i didn't see this coming. cause i thought he wouldn't. i thought he'd rather fix it, than end it. i was wrong. and he still isn't a bad person. he's one of the nicest i've ever known. he understands me. he hugs me in the middle of the road, when i'm crying. and he just lets me cry. cause he knows what i was feeling. he knows that i can't be alone, cause i'll feel sad. so he spent most of him time with me. he sacrificed a lot of things to be with me. and, he told me before,
不让别人伤害你,
把你变成人人都爱的小天使.
but, what if, he has stopped loving me.
but, what if, he's the one who's hurting me.
but, what if, he's no longer bothered?
i made you my everything.
cause i love you,
cause i trust you,
cause i believe in you,
cause i put my life in your hands.
you were my everything.
now you left,
i have nothing.
even though i felt like you treated this like a game. cause you're not bothered. when she asked you how're we. you said "you'll find out really fast" i swear, that made me shatter apart. not just my heart shattered, my whole self shattered. but, you're a nice, good, amazing, caring, person. i still love you.
and i love you, emilia, chelsea, joel, rachael, mandy, vivianw., alvin, ws.
thanks for being there for me. ☺
and, chelsea and joel, don't call him a jerk or bastard or what. he really isn't like that. he's really not like that. he's the kind of person that people will say is very nice, and understanding. don't get annoyed with him because of me. and, don't scold me for defending him. (:
